Left Alone in the Middle, Nothing Seems Right

When the river bends two ways, where do you go?

Standing at crossroads, what path do you take? Do you take the one not usually tread upon, the one you really want to go to, but the path is longer, narrower, harder to go through? Or do you follow where the currents take you? Do you let it take you where you know exactly where you're going to, but not exactly want to? Do you take a shortcut, or do you stop and smell the roses, savor the sunset, take life as it is and what it has to offer for the time being?

I am at a point in my life where I stand at crossroads.

I am too young to sit back, yet they say I am old enough to stop running through the fast lane. I am too young to give up my hopes of my dreams coming true, yet I am old enough to know exactly what I want to do with my life...or should have wanted.

I am too young to know what true love is, yet I am old enough to experience it, to have it. I am too young to know if love really does last forever, or at least last me through my lifetime. I am old enough to know though, and old enough to have seen it with my very eyes, that sometimes love doesn't last, that sometimes love is a sacrifice, that sometimes love hurts, and that sometimes love is just a lie.

I am too young to be a mother,they say, yet I am too old to be my mother's baby. That
doesn't suite me well on the days when I want to be treated like one...during the days I wish my needs to be attended to, be cared for, be hugged...days when I can barely carry my own heart.

I am too young to give up on life, yet with the things I know, and with a lifetime long ahead...sometimes it feels like age will never do a difference.

At crossroads, what path do you take? Choosing between two sides, which one will it be? How do you know it will be the right choice?

Standing in between, where do you go?