Nothing scares me anymore
Ghosts? Japanese horror films with disturbing images you see in your mind weeks after you've last seen it (maybe evn after the first time you've seen it)? Kapre? Silent,dead nights? Howling winds? Heights? Death?
I am not afraid of anything anymore.
Show me what you've got. Try me now. You cannot scare the hell out of me even if you tried.
I have become a thousand year old concrete wall, and you cannot bog me down. Well, I guess...there are a few things...
The Wall of China is still standing. Basically because it stands for something. It is heritage, culture,pride. If I was a wall, maybe that would be it.
I have to stand strong because I have a daughter. I have a family who will always be there to walk with me,stand by me...even if storms and earthquakes try to shatter me. I have this pride that YOU CANNOT BOG ME DOWN.
But then there are the Berlin Wall days. They tore the thing down to erase the line between two places, to stop creating boundaries and wars. It's almost the same thing for me, but most of the time it's just a matter of the heart over my mind.
I have these days. When the toughie is a softie. Damn, I could almost hear the pieces falling. I could hear the cracks coming on, and I can break soon. Essentially the good thing, I could choose not to break if I wanted to. But there are just those days when I cannot help but shatter to pieces with the littlest motivation.
And maybe this is the reason why I choose to be a Wall of China. Because I have gone through those days when I felt like the littlest things could hurt me. Now though, nothing scares me anymore. I basically have nothing to lose because I have lost it all.(Go figure) It seems as if I am holding most things in my iron hand right now...but the truth is...I'm not. I just want to let the tides flow. I am after all,a wall...an unmoving wall where people pass by, winds blow through, and seasons change over. But I will always be there.
Thank God, I will always be here. Nothing really scares me now...because the heavens will always be here as well to shine down on me...after the storm.
I am not afraid of anything anymore.
Show me what you've got. Try me now. You cannot scare the hell out of me even if you tried.
I have become a thousand year old concrete wall, and you cannot bog me down. Well, I guess...there are a few things...
The Wall of China is still standing. Basically because it stands for something. It is heritage, culture,pride. If I was a wall, maybe that would be it.
I have to stand strong because I have a daughter. I have a family who will always be there to walk with me,stand by me...even if storms and earthquakes try to shatter me. I have this pride that YOU CANNOT BOG ME DOWN.
But then there are the Berlin Wall days. They tore the thing down to erase the line between two places, to stop creating boundaries and wars. It's almost the same thing for me, but most of the time it's just a matter of the heart over my mind.
I have these days. When the toughie is a softie. Damn, I could almost hear the pieces falling. I could hear the cracks coming on, and I can break soon. Essentially the good thing, I could choose not to break if I wanted to. But there are just those days when I cannot help but shatter to pieces with the littlest motivation.
And maybe this is the reason why I choose to be a Wall of China. Because I have gone through those days when I felt like the littlest things could hurt me. Now though, nothing scares me anymore. I basically have nothing to lose because I have lost it all.(Go figure) It seems as if I am holding most things in my iron hand right now...but the truth is...I'm not. I just want to let the tides flow. I am after all,a wall...an unmoving wall where people pass by, winds blow through, and seasons change over. But I will always be there.
Thank God, I will always be here. Nothing really scares me now...because the heavens will always be here as well to shine down on me...after the storm.
posted by Jaypee at 9:10 AM
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